Sunday, 20 May 2012

P.S. 2

God bless you - You are amazing in His sight, never forget that!!! He created you in His image, and we all have a Purpose!!!

The new blog is up and running - you find it here: http://youschka.blogspot.com - it's called: Yielding to the Spirit (In the Name of the Father).

I started yet another blog, called Snippets of Wisdom and Truth - http://youschka2012.blogspot.com - unfortunately I haven't had much time yet, to share a lot, but I am taking notes, and when the time is right, I know, God will provide time for this blog as well.

God bless you my friends....I look forward to see you on the other side/blogs - the new chapters of my life!!!

See you there - until then, stay safe and be blessed,
your sister in the Lord - forever and ever
Amen

Final Words.....

God bless you - You are amazing in His sight, never forget that!!! He created you in His image, and we all have a Purpose!!!

Hello my friends - I want to give you some background info, why I am writing as Youschka  (my name in 'real life' is Tanja)......Youschka was the name of endearment my father gave me - this and Youschel......it took me almost until forever to realize that he really loved me dearly......just didn't know how to show it to me in the right way, or maybe I should say in the way that I could understand.....he was a very authoritarian father figure - I remember, when I was little I was afraid, when I was driving in the car with him, that I wasn't interesting to him - I had nothing smart to say.........I started fidgeting, when we were just him and I (still doing it today, when I am faced with moments of insecurity - I can't make eye contact, when I am in that place) - thankfully Christ has changed that too - today there is very few moments of this in my life anymore, and I know, when Christ has finished His work in me, even these moments won't be there anymore, cause I will be all renewed in Him.

In the course I am taking to become a Somatic/Psycho Therapist, I learnt, that all these mechanisms helped my soul to stay alive, to not give out and die. This school is not biblical at all - but it's representing Christ in the most perfect sense possible, as it accepts and frees from bondage. Helps the Psyche to understand it's bodily mechanisms or body postures better. Through picking up any movement whatsoever, that can be observed by the Therapist (Here I want to give tribute to the most intuitive and gifted person in this realm, I ever met - my Biosynthesis Trainer Gabriele Hoppe - Gabi, you are an inspiration to me), with detotalization of the body into different members of the body and into their unconscious movements or tics......lies the possibility to find out, what other movement might help the client to get in contact with new mechanisms, that fulfil the same purpose, but are voluntary and can be reproduced, because all of the sudden there is meaning and purpose in everything you do......thus the person learns to connect more fully to his or her innate potential, with the Talents and Gifts, God packed into their being.

But back to my name for the blog and my father..... - and my Heavenly Father for that matter: I chose to write under this name, because I want to honour my earthly Father - yes, he has hurt the little girl inside, but thanks to Christ filling me with His Holy Spirit, has made me see clearer, that He was just as much in bondage and had His own mechanisms in tact, that had done the same to him: kept him alive until this day. 

The deeper meaning of this blog is to say: Thank you Papa, for the love you gave me, even though you didn't know how to show it, that I would understand it, I got glimpses in how much you loved me, through giving me these names of endearment, and for funding all therapies in this world, that I needed, to get in touch with this inner me, which is Christ, until I could grow up in Christ and now stand tall in my Faith and Trust in God, to heal me - Papa, had it not been for you, I don't think I would be where I am today - because of the tainted love you gave me, and my God given talent, to never ever give up Hope, I found the deepest treasure that is in this world, and this is the Agape Love, which is Christ. So I want to thank you from the bottom of the heart for all that you were - all that you are today (iniquities and all) - I can only look at you through the eyes of Christ, with the Grace He has given to me, and see who you are in HIM!!!

I love you and I forgive you - I know, you truly didn't know what you were doing - and because Christ has taken residency inside of me, Ich sage Dir, lieber Papa, steh auf und geh - Du bist Frei!!! Lebe das Leben, welches Du noch vor Dir hast im Frieden mit Gott und der Welt und Geniesse es. Du hast es Dir verdient!! Amen

Ich Liebe Dich,

Deine J├╝ngste,
Youschka

Friday, 18 May 2012

I Repent.....

Good Morning my friends - this is the Day that the Lord has made - Let us rejoice and be glad in it!!! I love you all very much, and I believe that Christ has put this endless love for all mankind into my heart to help you find Him. He was and is and is to come - He has been with ALL of US since the beginning of time, and He will bring us back into His loving Arms, so that we will have eternity with Him!!!

This morning in my quiet time, God revealed to me, that I hadn't loved my Ex husband the way He wanted me to - through the song 'Tainted Love' that's going through my head these days.....and the fact that he (my Ex) is visiting right now, He (Christ that is) had been pointing me to this truth - again very lovingly - because that's just the way He is :). I know today, that it's true - deep down in my heart I wasn't ready - even though I had fallen in love, I don't think I was ready to truly LOVE again. I didn't know that then, but I know it today. There were 2 things, I did wrong - where I wasn't in His will:

1. I didn't trust God to either reunite me with the one I thought He has brought into my life for good, or to trust Him, to bring me another one, I could love as deeply. I took matters in my own little hands - thus stepping out from under His will :s

2. Because I wasn't ready to Love again, or should I rather say, because my heart was still captured by another man, I didn't give my husband my all, that he would have deserved and needed, to come into his own. I did love him ok, but that's never good enough - Love is too precious to waste. And I know I never gave Him the respect he longed for. 

So I took this to my precious Jesus this morning, and we cried together for the years of pain and longing for fulfilment through the wrong channels - now that I have found Him, I don't look any further - His Love is enough. Today I know, that if He has a plan for me to be married again, He will provide. The one who finds me, through following His Heart and Christ, will be the perfect one for me - my forever husband to live happily ever after.

Love is Holy, Love is from God, Christ paid the price for Love, so we have to freely give it, and we have to give it whole heartedly, anything tainted is not good enough. Since we as mere humans can't do that, we have to give it to God, and let the Holy Spirit take over - we have to trust Him with our entire life, and not keep snippets of it to ourselves - in our own control.

My dear friends, I believe that this is my last blog under this title, I believe this chapter of my life is closed - I am ready to embrace my destiny today - I believe He will still have me write, as this is His gift to me.....and it's what I do, to bring Him Glory.....so, my friends, I am not deserting you - I never could, but I have to see, where He wants me to go, as all I want is to be in His perfect will for me - and you for that matter. So stay tuned, I will keep you posted here, when the new blog is up!!! I already got a name :) - Yielding to the Spirit (In the Name of the Father!!!)

God bless you - You are amazing in His sight, never forget that!!! He created you in His image, and we all have a Purpose!!!

I love you very much and I pray for you always - 
In the mighty name of Jesus Christ,
Amen

P.S. Just wanted to tell you, that I spoke to my Ex husband and apologized for not loving him enough and not the perfect way I should have, and asked his forgiveness. Now we're free to move on!!!

Tuesday, 15 May 2012

Epic Moments.....

Remember when I spoke of my personal Cinderella Moment - well, in the meantime I was blessed with an Empress Sissi of Habsburg Moment:

At the Dance Competition there was a little 5 year old girl that came on stage to dance a Ballet Solo - (at 5 years old) - WOW!!! She was dancing to the 'Radetzky Marsch' - which is an Epic song for me, it originates in Austria. It is played at the 'Neujahrskonzert' in Vienna every year - growing up with a family that loves horses - my dad and my brother competed in Horse Jumping Shows - most of the time for the Honour's Round after the competition, when you placed, they'd ride their horses around the arena or rink to this music and the spectators would clap - to make a long story short.......already when she started dancing to the music, my tears welled up. Then she forgot what to do and went off the stage. 

She came back just before adjudication, to tray again (already a Huge accomplishment for a girl this small - God bless her heart for it). The entire auditorium clapped.....when they stopped clapping, I just went on clapping  - a) I thought she deserved this, b) this March calls for this kind of Honour.......after a little while everybody joined in and the entire auditorium clapped throughout the entire dance - I had tears in my eyes - as I thought about Sissi - do you guys know the movie - the Empress, when she clapped in the Opera for the singing of the audience, which was extremely rude and out of place, the aristocracy had sent their servants instead of showing up themselves.....

That's what I call being bold for Love (aka being bold for Jesus) - even though at first you feel awkward, but you know, what you do is right, then, when other people join in, your heart is overflowing - in such moments, Christ is present in you.....what a gift. I am deeply blessed.

God wants to give us these epic moments  - He gave me another one that same afternoon: one dance was to the song 'Eternal Flame' - it wasn't scheduled until the next day, but God wanted me to hear it, as it has been my favourite song for years, yet I almost forgot it......it's not played that much anymore - when I heard that song, I was weeping openly....moved to tears. Today I know: Yes, this burning is an eternal flame - it is the Eternal Flame of Love - the Love Jesus brought to this world. It's a gift from Heaven to Love Eternally. Amy Grant sings in 'The feeling I had' about twin hearts - I know the feeling, as I had it once......I believe, the Eternal Flame is when two twin hearts unite - when the Happily Ever After happens with your eternal Bridegroom - either this side of Heaven or the other side!!! That's the stuff the fairy tales are made of, to keep the Eternal Flame Burning.

Praying for you my friends, that you might recognize that Eternal Flame in your twin heart - it's easy to define: it's when you're loved, like Christ loved the Church - when you are loved for who you are, and not for who the other person thinks you should be, or if he or she seeks to find the love they crave. True love is about loving the other like Christ loved us - when we die to self, and turn our focus outward to love others, we're on the right track to find the Happily Ever After. The determining factor is the kind of love, is it Christ's Love shining through the eyes of the other person or not!!!

With this I gotta start my day - I need to relax some more, enjoy the time to myself in Christ a bit more - my day off only lasts until 4:00 pm today :) - and then my carriage turns back into a pumpkin :D

I love you my friends - may God reach out to your hearts and hold it safe in the palm of His hand - Your Destiny is safe in His hands. Be blessed today and conquer the world.

Amen



Monday, 14 May 2012

Deeply Blessed......

Hello my sweet friends, how are you tonight??? I left home this afternoon, to 'take a day off' :) - what a Blessing, what a Joy. Jesus again provided for the most amazing evening, with Him. When I got to my destination for the night, I went for a wonderful walk in the beautiful sunshine - recharging my batteries in God's Creation - again He blessed me with butterflies everywhere - a Monarch Butterfly which gave me the privilege to watch him for quite some time.....and then yellow butterflies, white ones and blueish ones - and peace.....no noises, just God and I in His Garden full of delight!!! 

Then a lovely dinner, with one of my best friends.......Michael W. Smith - no, my friends, no need to worry, we are not indulging in any immoral situation.....but I had bought his book on his latest concert - today I took to reading it. The people in the restaurant must have thought I was either a complete nutcase or just was a basket case out of a deep despair I was going through........as I was crying through most of my reading. Michael's word's have brought tears to my eyes, as they touched me to the core of my being............an absolute must read - His music has been a blessing to my heart for many many years, but reading his words (mind you, I still have a few more chapters to read.....) gave me yet a deeper insight into his beautiful soul - what a treasure this man is!!! A man after God's own heart for sure - an obedient servant of Christ. 

Thank you  Michael for all that you do for God's Kingdom. May God bless you and yours abundantly forever more. It feels as if I know you.......words that touch so deeply are truly inspired by the Holy Spirit, that's a given - and on this level, yes, you are a cherished friend of mine. I can't wait to meet you in July - I am ready to cruise with you.....What a Joy and Blessing this will be.

Now I have retired to my room and I am listening to MWS - what else could I listen to......MWS's old  songs are absolutely inspiring as well as his new songs. Just so grateful for the Talent God gave to him, to reach many for the Kingdom of God.

Grateful to be able to spend a night away from all the demands of life, to truly retreat and to charge my batteries away from it all - and glad I got to take MWS along with me. God never stops to amaze me with his plan for me....

Friends, I am praying for you tonight, I pray that God may bless you with an abundant Grace toward life and all the people in it, that may have hurt you in the past. I pray that you may see, how much God really loves you, that in the big scheme of things we are called to trust God with everything that concerns us, and He will make straight all that concerns us......trust Him, to judge justly the ones that persecute you and to bless you, as you're obedient to His calling.

God is a loving God, He is quick to forgive........and slow to anger. Let's embrace Him, become like Him - and love those in our sphere of influence abundantly, just like Christ loved us.........

Jesus is Lord........He always was, He is, and He is to come and take us home, to the place, where He prepared a place for us, that we may dwell with Him forever - I want to spend eternity with you all.......

Be Blessed tonight - rest in the Lord - AMEN!!! 


Friday, 11 May 2012

Shine for Jesus.......

Jesus is the Way, the Truth, the Light, the Alpha and the Omega - Yes, my friends, He sure is......when we let the Holy Spirit guide us.......we will find Him. With Him, everything makes sense. When I look back on all my life, I can see Him using absolutely Everything for the best of me, and I am grateful beyond anything I could have ever imagined myself being.

He can and will use everything for your best, if you let Him. Over the last 8 months, I have learnt, that my hardest lessons and times where those, when He was working on my behalf the most......and for my family (my little cell and my extended family) - Thank you Jesus!!! He is the perfecter of our Faith......He certainly has perfected my Faith over these last 8 months. When nothing else held together anymore, and I had to rely solely on His providence and His promises, He freed my from the bondage I was in. With regards to the situation with my son, I was so fearful, where this all might lead.....in deep despair, that I might not be able to protect him, save him........only to find out, that that was never my job to begin with - It was God's.........and He has provided everything we needed. Today my relationship with him (my son) is one of Trust, Grace and Love. He laughs a lot - actually we laugh a lot together. - we joke a lot, and he listens to me and I give him my undivided attention. The talks we have are great fun.

When I was pregnant with my son, I knew, that I was expecting a boy, but I was hugely afraid of having a boy - afraid I couldn't love him enough, as the men around me, when I grew up, have scared and scarred me deeply......I didn't know, if I could relate to a boy at all - if I even wanted to....

Today, I've come full circle - the relationships to my earthly father is healed and restored, ditto for my brother........and I love my son from the bottom of my heart. All this could not have happened, had it not been, for Jesus, to change me from the inside out. All my fears are washed away.

Jesus truly is the Way, the Truth and the Light - the freedom we are given in Christ is absolutely life altering, transformational...........I am gonna shine for Jesus until the end of my time here on Earth :)

God bless you all my friends - In Christ Jesus forever

Wednesday, 9 May 2012

It's a dance........

Hello my dear friends.....let me start by saying: I love you :) - God is so good........ALL THE TIME!!! I don't know why, but music is one of the best ways for me, to connect to my Daddy, who is in Heaven.....and right now, a certain song from Stevie Wonder is floating through my head and it has been coming up over and over again.....and I can assure you, it's not that I listened to it in the last little while - so I believe that this is the Spirit talking to me.....and He is saying.....: let me start by saying, I love you. It feels like, He is asking me to dance this dance with Him, and to rest in His embrace forever and ever - I will gladly take His hand. How precious is that??? It's through Music, that we communicate, through His word, through what other people say to us, or what we read throughout the day.....or which ever way works for you - it could be images or dreams as well.....and those are only the ones I am thinking of right now....He might choose totally different venues to talk to you - oh another way I find He's talking to me right now, is through Butterflies - I see them everywhere....in pictures, on cakes, on the table cloth I have on the table right now.......and tons and tons of real ones outside right now :) - there is a message in a flower, a bird, a heart shaped stone in a grave yard....you know what I mean. He is EVERYWHERE around you, you just have to SEE it and RECEIVE it - knowing in your heart, that it is for you.

I remember an instant many many years ago - I was working in a restaurant in Brampton, and I had just found out, that my co-owner had talked behind my back in a very nasty way - after I had confronted her, I was going to never ever in my life talk to her again. I then organized the newspapers in the restaurant, and one of the Headlines read: You are called to forgive - Ooooooops, I sure didn't want to hear that, then, in that circumstance, cause she had absolutely wronged me......yet, I knew, that it was God telling me, to forgive her - as I had been forgiven by Him - so I did it........she was in tears, and truly grateful, and our relationship has been much deeper then for the remaining time I worked with her, and even later.......now we've lost touch, but I know, that at this moment, I had blessed her, but I had also blessed myself - because unforgiveness causes a lot of pain - and Love covers a multitude of sin. And, obedience to the Holy Spirit brings big blessings. 

I urge you my friends, take all your hurts to your Father, who is in Heaven......He can deal with all your pain, and He can take you in His arms and comfort you, and bind up your wounds - that others might have afflicted upon you either unknowingly, unconsciously - utterly unaware, or because they have been hurt themselves, and they are trapped in their own behavioural patterns, that they cannot be any other way. Extend Forgiveness and Grace to them - as you yourself have been forgiven, by the Father. 

Ultimately, by forgiving them, you're freeing yourself out of the bondage you could have been in - and you're letting go of the burden.....passing it on to the One, who will judge each and everyone justly, He will do what He promises, He will judge those that persecute you. When you forgive, you trust that God, who knows your heart, and who knows their heart, knows what to do......

With this comes great freedom, the freedom, that God intended for His children. I am forever grateful, I am one of them. And I pray, that you may claim this truth for yourself as well. I lift you up in prayer to the Most High - I pray that you would be able to rest solely in Him.....not ever being tempted to go back to your old ways.

Praising God for His Faithfulness yesterday, today and tomorrow,
yours in Christ with Love and Grace forever

Monday, 7 May 2012

Very interesting indeed.....

My dear friends, praying that you all had an amazing day today - mine was absolutely mind-blowing - very exciting indeed. God is just incredibly faithful to me - He has brought some people into my life at just the right time, for just the right opportunity - I won't go into any detail, as that would be spoiling the surprise........yet I can tell you, the possibilities are tremendous. Now all that it takes, is patiently waiting for God to take the lead......showing me, where He wants me to go/what He wants me to do.

I promise you, once He gives me the green light, I will let you know for sure. For now I am just blown away at all the marvellous things, He seems to orchestrate in my life.

But then the enemy of my soul never rests.....tries to undo me all over again - I can assure you though, that I am perfectly fine........even though some of it does hurt, but I stand firm in His promises: If God is for me, who can be against me, that I would have to be afraid of - no one, neither my fellow men, nor the devil himself!!! Jesus has saved me.....first from my own sin, through His death on the cross and His abounding Grace - now from my adversaries.

I will have to say Good Night to you now, as I have to spend some time with the Love of my life, my precious Jesus......after an eventful day, I need to rest in His arms......and be restored through His word (His Love Letter to me!!!).

I love you all and my prayer is for a peaceful night to all of you, who need to find rest......maybe just like me.....in the arms of the lover of your soul.

Praise God for His great provision for His children - yesterday, today and tomorrow.
In Christ forever more

Sunday, 6 May 2012

He anoints and appoints - He recharges us.....

He anoints and appoints - how amazing is that. Leaders of countries, Leaders of Churches, Heads of companies, teachers, nurses, mothers, fathers - when we do what we are meant to do, we are fulfilled, joyful - and we are never running on empty. Even if you're extremely occupied and one meeting is after the other, if it's on God's to do list for you, He will recharge you.....

I had such a scenario on Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Under normal circumstances, i should have been incredibly exhausted - but I wasn't, actually I felt highly energized. Thank you Jesus, for helping me to be in tune more and more with your will for me.

If you are tired and exhausted, chances are, that you are either not where God wants you to be, or you are trying to do what you're called to do in your own strength. This has been me for many many years - I was constantly exhausted, with no way out.....ever - yet today, after laying it all down at the feet of my saviour, I am tired at the end of the day, yes, but never exhausted in the same way, I used to be.

Now that I know, that He is the one in charge of the How, and I surrendered all the things, that I thought I had to do or fix myself, to Him, I feel energized and Joyful all the time - despite of or because of my circumstances - even if the whole world persecutes me for my faith and think that I am on the wrong track......I know, that I will forever only have to report to Him - no one can ever take me hostage again.

When I came here a little over 3 years ago, and through all the struggles, I often prayed, that God would send me true friends, friends that would love me, for who I am and not for who they thought I should be. This prayer has been answered plentiful. I am forever grateful for all the wonderful people, God has put into my life.

If you are somewhere feeling lonely, ask God to send you people who truly accept and love you for who you are - I know, He will bless you with friends, just as He has blessed me. He wants you to have wonderful relationships - He is a relational God. And while you are waiting for Him to bless you with true friends, draw close to Him - for He is your very best friend......

Seek first the kingdom of God and all these things will be given unto you!!!! Once you have found the kingdom of God all else will have lost significance, it is then that we can receive all the blessings, God longs to give to us with a grateful heart - it is then, that all we do and have has a deeper meaning and is not self-serving anymore.

God bless you my friends - Good Night

You mean so much to Him

What an amazing concert last night in Toronto: Michael W. Smith - performing at The Church at Queensway. I just love the guy - his music has been inspirational for me in my walk with Christ for almost 20 years. His Lyrics always hit home and his music has helped to heal many many wounds in my heart - and he has inspired me to trust in God, to believe, that I really mattered to my Heavenly Father. Yesterday his message was again: God is incredibly fond of us - He really really loves us, and we can/have to stand tall in the promises of God......

You all know these promises - I have mentioned them galore in this blog.....over and over again. Let me tell you one more time: God would have sent His only son to die for you - if you had been the only person on earth. He just loves you. You are His Masterpiece, he created you to fulfil your destiny, the purpose He prepared for you, before the earth was created. He lovingly and patiently waits for your return. The story of the Prodigal  Son is true......and Our Heavenly Father is actively waiting for you to return. He will never grow weary - He believes in you, that you will return to Him eventually. So He waits and waits.......may I suggest, that you run to Him tonight - He so longs to wrap His loving arms around you and give you all the blessings He has prepared for you since the beginning of time.

What are we waiting for???

Tonight I am praying for you - that you would claim the promises of God for yourself, that you'd be able to withstand the enemy of your soul, that whispers lies over lies into your heart and mind - prompts you to build walls around your heart. Stand tall in the promises of God - that all is possible for Him, who believes. It doesn't even have to be you.....if someone prays for you, you can be saved - Prayer is powerful. I am praying for all of those, who asked me for prayer on their behalf....I have people that I need to pray for  - and I am praying for all of you in general. God knows your heart, and He will make a way, where there seems to be no way. 

If you want me to pray for you individually and more in depth, please feel free to send me a message on Facebook (Youschka Heintz) or follow me on twitter (youschka2012) - I do follow back :)

Jesus had you in mind, when He died on the Cross - You are forgiven
Your sister in Christ - forever and ever

Friday, 4 May 2012

What an amazing conference....

Yesterday I went to the most fabulous Conference - the 24th Annual School Psychology Conference - the speakers were: Dr. Stuart Shanker and Jane Bertrand - what an amazing pair.

When I walked into the Building, a string orchestra was playing live music - first time moved to tears - I just love strings.......okay, then I got a coffee and a muffin - some water and off I went listening to the most amazing account of the work they're doing, to help to free children with autism - how to reframe how we look at the children in our society. I was moved to tears many times, but especially, when Stuart Shanker said, that every child has a beautiful gift inside - that's what God says about all of us - and Dr. Shanker has grasped this essence with his work - I don't know, if he is a christian or not, but He shared deep insight on what's wrong with our society today, and how kids are suffering with an overload for their senses - and he has found a way to help to connect with autistic children. 

On one hand I wish I had known about his work several years back, maybe the path for my son could have been easier - but then again, that might have not been helpful in our journey, as I might have relied on Dr. Shanker and not on God alone, to see us through. But now, that I have placed all my trust in God, it's good to know, that there is people like Dr. Shanker - who is also one of God's masterpieces, God placed the desire, to do brain research and ultimately help children to connect on a deeper level to their environment and those around them, in his heart. This research will help our society tremendously - and it will reach more and more people all over the world over time. Thanking God for His great plan, to redeem all mankind, through people in all kinds of walks.

You may remember, that I always wanted to help reach and unlock children with autism - well, who knows, maybe one day I will be able to work with Dr. Shanker from the therapeutic side of things - for now, I will direct people in my sphere of influence, that have children with autism to him. But from what I am experiencing in my life right now: God has so many surprises and miracles up His sleeve, that I just leave it all up to Him and just keep trusting Him,knowing that He knows, what He is doing, and go, where He is directing me. 

He even played a song for me today, when I turned on the radio in the car, when I went to pick up the kids from the bus, that many many years back someone had left on my answering machine - brought a smile to my face. That's what I mean, when I say, God is involved in every moment of our lives and He at all times gives us what we need - and He's amazing at surprising me every moment of my life. God right now is giving me Butterflies everywhere, they are His special gift to me - they now are my trademark (I even have a Butterfly tattoo on my wrist - and the most important word of all times engraved there: GRACE) His Grace has truly set me free and given me wings to fly!!! Thank you Jesus!!!

I love you my friends, and I am so thankful for all of you - thank you for taking time out of your busy day to read my blog!!! I am praying for you always and I send you hugs and blessings tonight

your sister in Christ - forever praising Him for His Faithfulness

Tuesday, 1 May 2012

Love is the answer....

This is the absolute truth: Love is the answer to all our troubles!!! When we have LOVE, nothing is impossible - there is always a way to build bridges, even if the separation has been too deep, or too long.

When God gave the commandment: Love your neighbour as yourself - that's what He meant. When we have love for ourselves, we can love our neighbour more fully, more completely - and when we love our neighbour like ourselves, there is always a possibility to forgive, to build a bridge, where we can find common ground again.

This is what He wants us to embrace. When we have God being our best friend, the one we consult with regarding all things in our life, that is where He would always point us: Never let the sun go down and still be angry - anger will make you bitter and resentful with time. So deal with your anger, your frustration and all other negative feelings when they arise, and try to find common ground with your adversaries (your neighbours - figure of speech ;)) and love them and pray for them - pray for God to bless them - you are the one who's reaping the reward, if you do, just as you are also reaping the consequences, if you don't.

God wants to bless us all, but we need to do what it takes - love our neighbours as ourselves, love our neighbours as Christ loved us - to receive the blessings.

God bless you today and always

Monday, 30 April 2012

God IS Faithful.....


.....All the Time!!! Last night I watched a Movie, that moved me to tears, a Movie about second chances, a man and a woman both struggling with challenges of their own.....meeting by chance, but helping each other to see clearly, to feel alive again.....yet before they can start their future together, the man dies, leaving the woman grieving, but changed forever......embracing life!!! That's how it is with God - with God we get our second chance at life - Life more abundant at that. With God, we do not have to face sudden loss/death, but we gain eternal life with Him.

At the end of the movie, she sees the wild ponies, she always dreamt about seeing, they gallop right towards her - another way, God works in our life. He fulfils our biggest dreams - ever surprising us with His generosity and tender love - He knows our heart and He knows our deepest wishes......mind you, He placed them in our hearts, and it is His desire, to fulfil them.

Never ever give up believing, that He will come through for you as well. The enemy of our soul wants us to believe, that we'll never amount to anything, that our deepest wishes are just that: wishes, that will never be granted. Turn to God and believe His promises, that He will free you from bondage and that He'll heal your hurting heart.....He will never forsake you - and He longs for you to reach your full potential.

He who created you in your mother's womb gave you all the talent and gifts, to reach your full potential and fulfil your destiny.

Praising God for His Faithfulness - always


Friday, 27 April 2012

P.S.

Oh, I forgot to mention: He gave us the fairy tales, that our souls had something to long for and look forward to....:)

There is the promised 2nd. part from today's quiet time with God: He has shown me that He wants to heal me completely - that's not new.....but today he brought my attention to something that has been troubling me for a while...... - my son enjoys to tickle those around him, including me - yet I hate it so much......that makes him like it even more. I am struggling with how am I going to teach him to respect other people's spaces, I have turned to God, to show me, how He wants me to teach, discipline my children, His one advice was, to keep my calm with them, and let the Holy Spirit flow through me - yet in the moment that's tough, as it really bothers me - so here comes the astounding part: He showed me, why it did bother me so much......during my life there were times, when I was touched against my will (thankfully I have never been raped, but I have been molested), which actually made me put on quite some weight, as to hide myself, that men would not find me attractive - or where I was reprimanded for touching myself (even though just very innocently as a little girl) - this all resulted in a not so balanced way, how I feel about being touched today, even if it is just being tickled by my son - this being entirely innocent.

Today He promised me, that He would take away the hurt and shame that came with those childhood memories, that I will be made whole again, that I will not feel threatened this way ever again. Again there were tears, but as it is these days, the tears, that are shed, are always tears of relief and gratitude. I know, He will lovingly complete the work He has begun in me.....He's never going to quit, until He is through. Yeah, that's absolutely true. That is the character of God - He's not a quitter, never was and never will be. I am so glad, that He is my master, and that it is He, who holds my destiny safe in His Hands.

As I was reading today - I am doing a book/bible study with a dear friend of mine - we're reading the book: 'So long insecurity" by Beth Moore - I was deeply blessed and I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, God wants me to be set apart for Him, being a woman clothed in Dignity and Strength - given to me, by my Creator, who placed Eternity in our hearts, that we wouldn't settle for less than what only He can bestow onto us - Happily Ever after with our eternal bridegroom. What a destiny to receive, wow I am again thrilled to see, that He will do all that it takes, to set me free from all the bondage I am in. And He wants to do the same thing for you.

Trusting Him with all the refining and polishing and healing He is doing - 
gratefully yours, forever


Happily Ever After..... - Fairy tales are 4 real :)


Good Morning my sweet friends, here is what I received this morning - God has chosen to wake me up really early these days and then I pray and we have our quiet time together....this morning the message was twofold.....

1. We always say, that fairy tales are not for real - well, I have some news for you: they are for real, just as Heaven is for real. The struggles that are in the fairy tale, the fights - what ever is the body of the story represents our days here on earth - where we face challenges of many kinds, but when we find our eternal bridegroom - He will save us from all our trials, and when we finally see Him face to face, and are His Princess Bride, we will find the happily ever after we are longing for so desperately.

We were on the wrong track, trying to find this kind of Happiness in the here and now, when we're not in God's Will for our lives - yet we can reach that point, once we are following Him and only Him. Then the rejoicing begins, and the Happily Ever After will follow.

The second part will come later - maybe today or tomorrow - as I have to run and get a few things done, I just thought, you'd like to hear that one right away.

Your sister in the Lord - a grateful follower of Christ forever

Thursday, 26 April 2012

Spread you arms and die......

I am speechless - again - seems to happen quite often lately :) - at what God is doing in my life. Today His word for me was, trust me, to carry you over the finish line, if you're too weary.....well, that's still a bit tough for me, I always was far more the doer, than I have ever been the beer......today He'd made it clear though, that He wanted me to step back and relax (guess how He did that: my car broke down, as I was just going back home to let the dog out to pee and then head out again, to meet with a friend of mine)........I had just texted my friend, that I would be there shortly, when my car slowed down, just to stop completely. It needed to be towed into the shop, and is diagnosed at this moment. I didn't have to search far, that He wanted me to stay put. 

There are some things that are gripping my heart right now - not in real fear, but in letting go of old insecurities which really aren't appropriate anymore - He wants me to turn it all over to Him. 'The vultures of darkness ate the crumbs you left - just leave it to me, I'll lead you home '- as Michael W. Smith sings.......yes, I spread my arms and died to my old ways, turned it all over to Him, and left it to Him, to lead me home. I don't need any of these old habits and old character traits anymore

Not easy, that's for sure, but then again, what is here in this world? Plus nobody ever promised us, it would be easy - Jesus did promise us though, that He'd never leave us, and that He'd calm the storms for us or carry us through them - and that we could do all things, through Christ, who strengthens us.

The best is yet to come - when you spread your arms and die to self - you get to spread your wings and fly for Him. I personally rather fly, even if it requires to die first. For the dying to self is necessary to be truly set free to fly. Yet by surrendering All to Jesus, we get so much in return - it still blows me away....I may never actually get accustomed to the thrill of seeing to which extend He wants to be involved in my life and in which measure He is willing to come through for me. 

Right now, He is moving in so many ways in my life - and even though it's tough sometimes, to not try to take hold of the reins again - for fear lurking around the corner, I never want them back at all.  Complete Love casts out all fear......which means, if I fix my eyes upon Jesus, I don't have to be afraid anymore, for He promises me, that no weapon against me should prosper - that He will protect me from my enemies. How can I still be afraid? 

In Christ we stand forevermore - that's all we ever have to do......stand tall in Him and trust, that He will lead us home into His loving arms.

Praying for you right now - Hugs and God's Blessings to you always

Wednesday, 25 April 2012

Double check your motives.....


My head is spinning with all the teaching and disciplining I am receiving from my Heavenly Father right now - today's lesson was on checking my inner motives..... - You all know, that I love the Lord my God with all my heart, but somehow through all the transparency and honesty that I want for this blog, somehow a very selfish desire had slipped unnoticed through my scan check.....I had used the blog, not to lie about my feelings and experiences, but to get even with someone - I won't go into detail, as it isn't relevant in the content, as all I write is true and honest, but the motivation why I wrote it (mind you, I perceived it as from God) was a selfish one - that's why it's even more important, to double check our motives, especially in such a sacred message - we have to be pure vessels for God - there is no room for selfish motivation or gain. 

Today, He has made this slip very clear to me, and I promise, that I will be far more careful in the future, that this will never happen again. 

I apologize, that I didn't realize what was going on, and if I did, I had denied it completely/didn't want to look at it......but God is ever so faithful at pointing it out - He does it always in such a way, that I can take the disciplining in stride - and learn and grow. 

My promise to you, and God is, that I will double check my motives at all times from now on. This blog is sacred to me, and I feel extremely honoured by you all, that you take the time to read my humble account - I pray that you will find it encouraging in your walk with Christ - maybe even choose to give your life to Christ and find a Bible preaching church in your reach.

My friends, I am headed to bed now, but I had to make things right with God and with you, before I turn in for the night. I love you all so much, and please feel free to comment my blog, if you have questions or anything else you might want to share with me. You can befriend me on Facebook (Youschka Heintz) or follow me on Twitter (youschka2012) - I'd love to hang out with you - I am interested in hearing about your struggles and you can always post a prayer request here as well.

Good night for today, wishing you a peaceful night


Tuesday, 24 April 2012

Rejoicing comes in the morning.....


Wow, this day truly has been a bit of a roller coaster: first big tears.......a heart that is hurting - but Jesus again has been more than faithful - He has comforted me and wiped away my tears. Now to something real big: He has shown me, that I have to rejoice in Him at all times and that I have to receive all His blessings with a grateful heart. 

Okay, here is the scoop: at 1:00 pm we had a meeting at the school - we, that's the principal of the school, my son's teacher, the teacher of my son's homeroom......my son and myself - Here is the big news: Tomorrow my son will be reintegrated into his classroom!!! Hallelujah - Praise God.

I had been at the mall this morning, cause I had to return and exchange a few gifts, that my daughter had received for her birthday, that didn't fit her. On the way there - you might remember, that I love praying out loud in my car.... - I realized, that I really had to receive ALL He has for me, that means really ALL - that means, that He promises us Healing in His word, if we only believe. Remember the woman that only needed to touch His garment, and was healed. This Healing is ours, if we only believe. I have been walking by Faith alone the last few weeks or months......believing the promises God has given me regarding my son - that He would be called the City of God's Delight, no longer being called the Forsaken one. I am receiving this truth today. I only need to touch His garment - by my Faith my son has been set free - His heart has found healing and He is complete in Christ.

Huge huge huge indeed. It's taken a number of months of my precious Jesus changing me inside out - today all doubt in His promises, that He truly is for real has been extinguished. 

At this point, I want to express my deepest gratitude to the elders of my church for their involvement in my son's life - thank you.....you will never know, how much I appreciate you. The same goes for the pastor, who let him and his teacher use a room in our church. This heart of a mother is moved to tears of gratitude. Praying for all the wonderful people that have represented such pillars of faith and prayer to us.

The church next door to the school also provided a room for the last few weeks, before the reintegration happened, to provide a partial reintegration - meaning that my son could spend recess with his friends - A big Thank You to the pastor and their staff as well. Truly, honestly, we couldn't have done it without you. 

I also want to thank the school for extending a hand of Grace to us - all these months walking alongside me - being Jesus to me, when I was about to break. I can only again say: I am overwhelmed, what the people around me have done for me and my little family - and my prayer is, that God may greatly bless them all for the strength they have provided for me, when I was about to crumble in the raging see - drowning in the inside - raining in the inside, as Amy Grant sings. 

Through it all, God has provided for people to love us, people to strengthen us, to comfort us, therapists and counsellors, to provide the base on which to stand - when there was not much else to stand on. He has helped me to truly trust Him with all my heart and not lean on my own understanding.

Grateful also for music - Amy Grant and Michael W. Smith have for more than 20 given me strength through the beautiful gift, God has given them. This year truly is a year of favour from the Lord - I will meet both Artists in the summer. Thankful thankful thankful.

Karen Kingsbury helped me to start believing in the small voice of God.....that I could hear it, too - I cruised with her this march. All three artists have been of paramount blessing to me, helping me to draw nearer and nearer to Jesus. Now I am praying, that the Lord will continue to bless them and strengthen them in their beautiful ministries. What an amazing year this is.

Just recently, I learnt to be really grateful for my challenges - they turn out to be my deepest blessings, they have coloured my life in the brightest colours and as any artist knows, black gives depth to any picture. They have made me turn to God, and trust only in Him - and He in turn has given me the biggest present, that is His Grace and Forgiveness, a wonderful Relationship and Eternity with Him.

I hope and pray that my story is opening your eyes to the Glory of God and helps you choose to put your trust in Him. Rejoicing truly comes in the morning.

Forever grateful


Rejection hurts......

Rejection hurts, that's a given - yet it let's us share in the pain, that Jesus must have felt, when He walked the earth. The rejection from the all the people on Calvary, in His hometown, His childhood friends - even His family. His heart must have been breaking.

As God has shown me recently, that I still had scars that resulted from past rejections....Today, when I read my devotions, my heart was breaking all over again. Due to some incident from recent days, it had  all been brought to the forefront of my heart.  Yet today Jesus wrapped His loving arms around me once again, and healed my heart of some of the biggest blows in my life, or should I say bound them up, so that they can truly heal. I am not saying that it is over......but as it is with God - one step at a time, He binds up one wound at a time......there will be more, I am sure, things that I have stuffed so far away, into the deepest crevices of my heart.....it will take some more digging and Healing, that's a given, but I know, that I can trust, that He catches me, when I fall and He'll wipe away all my tears, in His time.

Knowing this, I don't fear the next bend anymore. Jesus will provide the shoulder I need, to cry on....He's going to hold me tight, until I will lift up my eyes, when all the tears are gone - then He will look into my eyes and tell me - you are my princess, I know, how much you have been hurting, I've been there, sweet darling, I have come to Heal your heart completely - that's why He says in His word: Come to me, all you are weary and heavy laden - and I will give you rest. He will make sure, that all will be well with my soul. 

He promises that He goes before us, that He has our back - He will protect you from the ones that have hurt you, prosecuted you, He will protect you from your enemies - Always. So please, my dear friends, rest in His promises and in His loving arms - He will wipe away your tears - just as He has done to me today.

Have Faith - your sister in Christ

Monday, 23 April 2012

Do you speak Holy Spirit....?

It's funny, but I realise a pattern in the way I learn/speak different languages: When I first came to North America, I thought I couldn't hold my own in a conversation, until I dreamt in English - that's when I realised that yes, I am pretty fluent......especially if I am dreaming in this language. English has always been my free language - it's the language I pray in.....most of the time. Even though I make it a point, to teach my kids to pray the 'Lord's Prayer'  and a few other prayers in German (as it's their mother tongue). It's a gift, to grow up bilingual, a gift I will give to my kids. 

In order to get my degree at a Hotel Management School in Switzerland - the French part of Switzerland - I went to Paris to study French. There again, I was doing so so - holding my own in a conversation, until I had a dream, that I was spending an evening with my french family - it hit me, that I had dreamt of my difficulties speaking French, yet I had been able to dream their conversations in perfect French. That's when I knew, that I knew far more than I thought I did.

When I started writing this blog, it was for myself only - yet I felt compelled to write - by the Holy Spirit???..... - when I gave it to a friend of mine to read....there were passages, that I didn't realise I had written. I realised then, that it truly was God/the Holy Spirit prompting me to write - as I had previously thought, yet I hadn't been entirely sure. I, again, I didn't notice until an occasion arose that proved that fact to me. As whoever praises God and honours Christ in His writing writes in Spirit and in Truth. Someone, who is not filled with the Holy Spirit or filled with another Spirit, that isn't from God, would not be able to give Reverence and Glory to God. He might even curse God, and that truly is not of God. So I guess I can say, that means I speak Holy Spirit - do you?

I know, that God imparts different gifts to His followers, and He works in all of His children simultaneously to change us from Glory to Glory - and I cannot boast about the things I am writing about here.....they are not of me, but of His Spirit - He compels me to share my testimony and to write about what I have learnt in my walk with Christ..... - to comfort you and to give you hope. I believe His gift to me is writing - it's something that I always loved to do. He has put this love for writing into my heart, when I was knit together in my mothers womb - He knew, what He wanted me to do, before I could even glimpse it from afar.

It's such an Honour to be writing for Him. That's all I ever dreamt to do - remember I shared, that several years ago, I thought that one day I will write a book. The Title was already there, but nothing else. Well the title was 'In The Name of The Father' - that's the title of my blog. I don't know if this will become a book one day, or if this blog is what God intended me to write..... (at the time blogging didn't even exist) - all I know is, that I will go, where God will lead me, will do what God will lead me to do. As this is the only way I can imagine life from this day forward. 

My prayer for you today is, that you would find your gift, if you haven't found it yet. God has given you special purpose and a special gift or talent. The talent is God's gift to us, what we do with it - how we can honour Him through using our talent is our gift back to God.

I am sure, it's not hidden or hard to find - most of the time it's something that you have enjoyed doing all your life, yet you would never have thought it could be used for the Glory of God.

Heavenly Father, I lift up all the women and men that are reading my blog, that they would find you - they would find the gift you gave them to bring Glory to your name. I know, you are giving me the gift to share my Faith and my story with them, with them in mind. That they might find comfort and hope in it, that they in turn can come to you and that they would trust you with their lives. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ I pray - AMEN

Your sister in Christ - always