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Oh, I forgot to mention: He gave us the fairy tales, that our souls had something to long for and look forward to....:)

There is the promised 2nd. part from today's quiet time with God: He has shown me that He wants to heal me completely - that's not new.....but today he brought my attention to something that has been troubling me for a while...... - my son enjoys to tickle those around him, including me - yet I hate it so much......that makes him like it even more. I am struggling with how am I going to teach him to respect other people's spaces, I have turned to God, to show me, how He wants me to teach, discipline my children, His one advice was, to keep my calm with them, and let the Holy Spirit flow through me - yet in the moment that's tough, as it really bothers me - so here comes the astounding part: He showed me, why it did bother me so much......during my life there were times, when I was touched against my will (thankfully I have never been raped, but I have been molested), which actually made me put on quite some weight, as to hide myself, that men would not find me attractive - or where I was reprimanded for touching myself (even though just very innocently as a little girl) - this all resulted in a not so balanced way, how I feel about being touched today, even if it is just being tickled by my son - this being entirely innocent.

Today He promised me, that He would take away the hurt and shame that came with those childhood memories, that I will be made whole again, that I will not feel threatened this way ever again. Again there were tears, but as it is these days, the tears, that are shed, are always tears of relief and gratitude. I know, He will lovingly complete the work He has begun in me.....He's never going to quit, until He is through. Yeah, that's absolutely true. That is the character of God - He's not a quitter, never was and never will be. I am so glad, that He is my master, and that it is He, who holds my destiny safe in His Hands.

As I was reading today - I am doing a book/bible study with a dear friend of mine - we're reading the book: 'So long insecurity" by Beth Moore - I was deeply blessed and I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, God wants me to be set apart for Him, being a woman clothed in Dignity and Strength - given to me, by my Creator, who placed Eternity in our hearts, that we wouldn't settle for less than what only He can bestow onto us - Happily Ever after with our eternal bridegroom. What a destiny to receive, wow I am again thrilled to see, that He will do all that it takes, to set me free from all the bondage I am in. And He wants to do the same thing for you.

Trusting Him with all the refining and polishing and healing He is doing - 
gratefully yours, forever

Happily Ever After..... - Fairy tales are 4 real :)

Good Morning my sweet friends, here is what I received this morning - God has chosen to wake me up really early these days and then I pray and we have our quiet time together....this morning the message was twofold.....

1. We always say, that fairy tales are not for real - well, I have some news for you: they are for real, just as Heaven is for real. The struggles that are in the fairy tale, the fights - what ever is the body of the story represents our days here on earth - where we face challenges of many kinds, but when we find our eternal bridegroom - He will save us from all our trials, and when we finally see Him face to face, and are His Princess Bride, we will find the happily ever after we are longing for so desperately.

We were on the wrong track, trying to find this kind of Happiness in the here and now, when we're not in God's Will for our lives - yet we can reach that point, once we are following Him and only Him. Then the rejoicing begins, and the Happily Ever After will follow.

The second part will come later - maybe today or tomorrow - as I have to run and get a few things done, I just thought, you'd like to hear that one right away.

Your sister in the Lord - a grateful follower of Christ forever

Spread you arms and die......

I am speechless - again - seems to happen quite often lately :) - at what God is doing in my life. Today His word for me was, trust me, to carry you over the finish line, if you're too weary.....well, that's still a bit tough for me, I always was far more the doer, than I have ever been the beer......today He'd made it clear though, that He wanted me to step back and relax (guess how He did that: my car broke down, as I was just going back home to let the dog out to pee and then head out again, to meet with a friend of mine)........I had just texted my friend, that I would be there shortly, when my car slowed down, just to stop completely. It needed to be towed into the shop, and is diagnosed at this moment. I didn't have to search far, that He wanted me to stay put. 

There are some things that are gripping my heart right now - not in real fear, but in letting go of old insecurities which really aren't appropriate anymore - He wants me to turn it all over to Him. 'The vultures of darkness ate the crumbs you left - just leave it to me, I'll lead you home '- as Michael W. Smith sings.......yes, I spread my arms and died to my old ways, turned it all over to Him, and left it to Him, to lead me home. I don't need any of these old habits and old character traits anymore

Not easy, that's for sure, but then again, what is here in this world? Plus nobody ever promised us, it would be easy - Jesus did promise us though, that He'd never leave us, and that He'd calm the storms for us or carry us through them - and that we could do all things, through Christ, who strengthens us.

The best is yet to come - when you spread your arms and die to self - you get to spread your wings and fly for Him. I personally rather fly, even if it requires to die first. For the dying to self is necessary to be truly set free to fly. Yet by surrendering All to Jesus, we get so much in return - it still blows me away....I may never actually get accustomed to the thrill of seeing to which extend He wants to be involved in my life and in which measure He is willing to come through for me. 

Right now, He is moving in so many ways in my life - and even though it's tough sometimes, to not try to take hold of the reins again - for fear lurking around the corner, I never want them back at all.  Complete Love casts out all fear......which means, if I fix my eyes upon Jesus, I don't have to be afraid anymore, for He promises me, that no weapon against me should prosper - that He will protect me from my enemies. How can I still be afraid? 

In Christ we stand forevermore - that's all we ever have to do......stand tall in Him and trust, that He will lead us home into His loving arms.

Praying for you right now - Hugs and God's Blessings to you always

Double check your motives.....

My head is spinning with all the teaching and disciplining I am receiving from my Heavenly Father right now - today's lesson was on checking my inner motives..... - You all know, that I love the Lord my God with all my heart, but somehow through all the transparency and honesty that I want for this blog, somehow a very selfish desire had slipped unnoticed through my scan check.....I had used the blog, not to lie about my feelings and experiences, but to get even with someone - I won't go into detail, as it isn't relevant in the content, as all I write is true and honest, but the motivation why I wrote it (mind you, I perceived it as from God) was a selfish one - that's why it's even more important, to double check our motives, especially in such a sacred message - we have to be pure vessels for God - there is no room for selfish motivation or gain. 

Today, He has made this slip very clear to me, and I promise, that I will be far more careful in the future, that this will never happen again. 

I apologize, that I didn't realize what was going on, and if I did, I had denied it completely/didn't want to look at it......but God is ever so faithful at pointing it out - He does it always in such a way, that I can take the disciplining in stride - and learn and grow. 

My promise to you, and God is, that I will double check my motives at all times from now on. This blog is sacred to me, and I feel extremely honoured by you all, that you take the time to read my humble account - I pray that you will find it encouraging in your walk with Christ - maybe even choose to give your life to Christ and find a Bible preaching church in your reach.

My friends, I am headed to bed now, but I had to make things right with God and with you, before I turn in for the night. I love you all so much, and please feel free to comment my blog, if you have questions or anything else you might want to share with me. You can befriend me on Facebook (Youschka Heintz) or follow me on Twitter (youschka2012) - I'd love to hang out with you - I am interested in hearing about your struggles and you can always post a prayer request here as well.

Good night for today, wishing you a peaceful night

Rejoicing comes in the morning.....

Wow, this day truly has been a bit of a roller coaster: first big tears.......a heart that is hurting - but Jesus again has been more than faithful - He has comforted me and wiped away my tears. Now to something real big: He has shown me, that I have to rejoice in Him at all times and that I have to receive all His blessings with a grateful heart. 

Okay, here is the scoop: at 1:00 pm we had a meeting at the school - we, that's the principal of the school, my son's teacher, the teacher of my son's homeroom......my son and myself - Here is the big news: Tomorrow my son will be reintegrated into his classroom!!! Hallelujah - Praise God.

I had been at the mall this morning, cause I had to return and exchange a few gifts, that my daughter had received for her birthday, that didn't fit her. On the way there - you might remember, that I love praying out loud in my car.... - I realized, that I really had to receive ALL He has for me, that means really ALL - that means, that He promises us Healing in His word, if we only believe. Remember the woman that only needed to touch His garment, and was healed. This Healing is ours, if we only believe. I have been walking by Faith alone the last few weeks or months......believing the promises God has given me regarding my son - that He would be called the City of God's Delight, no longer being called the Forsaken one. I am receiving this truth today. I only need to touch His garment - by my Faith my son has been set free - His heart has found healing and He is complete in Christ.

Huge huge huge indeed. It's taken a number of months of my precious Jesus changing me inside out - today all doubt in His promises, that He truly is for real has been extinguished. 

At this point, I want to express my deepest gratitude to the elders of my church for their involvement in my son's life - thank you.....you will never know, how much I appreciate you. The same goes for the pastor, who let him and his teacher use a room in our church. This heart of a mother is moved to tears of gratitude. Praying for all the wonderful people that have represented such pillars of faith and prayer to us.

The church next door to the school also provided a room for the last few weeks, before the reintegration happened, to provide a partial reintegration - meaning that my son could spend recess with his friends - A big Thank You to the pastor and their staff as well. Truly, honestly, we couldn't have done it without you. 

I also want to thank the school for extending a hand of Grace to us - all these months walking alongside me - being Jesus to me, when I was about to break. I can only again say: I am overwhelmed, what the people around me have done for me and my little family - and my prayer is, that God may greatly bless them all for the strength they have provided for me, when I was about to crumble in the raging see - drowning in the inside - raining in the inside, as Amy Grant sings. 

Through it all, God has provided for people to love us, people to strengthen us, to comfort us, therapists and counsellors, to provide the base on which to stand - when there was not much else to stand on. He has helped me to truly trust Him with all my heart and not lean on my own understanding.

Grateful also for music - Amy Grant and Michael W. Smith have for more than 20 given me strength through the beautiful gift, God has given them. This year truly is a year of favour from the Lord - I will meet both Artists in the summer. Thankful thankful thankful.

Karen Kingsbury helped me to start believing in the small voice of God.....that I could hear it, too - I cruised with her this march. All three artists have been of paramount blessing to me, helping me to draw nearer and nearer to Jesus. Now I am praying, that the Lord will continue to bless them and strengthen them in their beautiful ministries. What an amazing year this is.

Just recently, I learnt to be really grateful for my challenges - they turn out to be my deepest blessings, they have coloured my life in the brightest colours and as any artist knows, black gives depth to any picture. They have made me turn to God, and trust only in Him - and He in turn has given me the biggest present, that is His Grace and Forgiveness, a wonderful Relationship and Eternity with Him.

I hope and pray that my story is opening your eyes to the Glory of God and helps you choose to put your trust in Him. Rejoicing truly comes in the morning.

Forever grateful

Rejection hurts......

Rejection hurts, that's a given - yet it let's us share in the pain, that Jesus must have felt, when He walked the earth. The rejection from the all the people on Calvary, in His hometown, His childhood friends - even His family. His heart must have been breaking.

As God has shown me recently, that I still had scars that resulted from past rejections....Today, when I read my devotions, my heart was breaking all over again. Due to some incident from recent days, it had  all been brought to the forefront of my heart.  Yet today Jesus wrapped His loving arms around me once again, and healed my heart of some of the biggest blows in my life, or should I say bound them up, so that they can truly heal. I am not saying that it is over......but as it is with God - one step at a time, He binds up one wound at a time......there will be more, I am sure, things that I have stuffed so far away, into the deepest crevices of my heart.....it will take some more digging and Healing, that's a given, but I know, that I can trust, that He catches me, when I fall and He'll wipe away all my tears, in His time.

Knowing this, I don't fear the next bend anymore. Jesus will provide the shoulder I need, to cry on....He's going to hold me tight, until I will lift up my eyes, when all the tears are gone - then He will look into my eyes and tell me - you are my princess, I know, how much you have been hurting, I've been there, sweet darling, I have come to Heal your heart completely - that's why He says in His word: Come to me, all you are weary and heavy laden - and I will give you rest. He will make sure, that all will be well with my soul. 

He promises that He goes before us, that He has our back - He will protect you from the ones that have hurt you, prosecuted you, He will protect you from your enemies - Always. So please, my dear friends, rest in His promises and in His loving arms - He will wipe away your tears - just as He has done to me today.

Have Faith - your sister in Christ

Do you speak Holy Spirit....?

It's funny, but I realise a pattern in the way I learn/speak different languages: When I first came to North America, I thought I couldn't hold my own in a conversation, until I dreamt in English - that's when I realised that yes, I am pretty fluent......especially if I am dreaming in this language. English has always been my free language - it's the language I pray in.....most of the time. Even though I make it a point, to teach my kids to pray the 'Lord's Prayer'  and a few other prayers in German (as it's their mother tongue). It's a gift, to grow up bilingual, a gift I will give to my kids. 

In order to get my degree at a Hotel Management School in Switzerland - the French part of Switzerland - I went to Paris to study French. There again, I was doing so so - holding my own in a conversation, until I had a dream, that I was spending an evening with my french family - it hit me, that I had dreamt of my difficulties speaking French, yet I had been able to dream their conversations in perfect French. That's when I knew, that I knew far more than I thought I did.

When I started writing this blog, it was for myself only - yet I felt compelled to write - by the Holy Spirit???..... - when I gave it to a friend of mine to read....there were passages, that I didn't realise I had written. I realised then, that it truly was God/the Holy Spirit prompting me to write - as I had previously thought, yet I hadn't been entirely sure. I, again, I didn't notice until an occasion arose that proved that fact to me. As whoever praises God and honours Christ in His writing writes in Spirit and in Truth. Someone, who is not filled with the Holy Spirit or filled with another Spirit, that isn't from God, would not be able to give Reverence and Glory to God. He might even curse God, and that truly is not of God. So I guess I can say, that means I speak Holy Spirit - do you?

I know, that God imparts different gifts to His followers, and He works in all of His children simultaneously to change us from Glory to Glory - and I cannot boast about the things I am writing about here.....they are not of me, but of His Spirit - He compels me to share my testimony and to write about what I have learnt in my walk with Christ..... - to comfort you and to give you hope. I believe His gift to me is writing - it's something that I always loved to do. He has put this love for writing into my heart, when I was knit together in my mothers womb - He knew, what He wanted me to do, before I could even glimpse it from afar.

It's such an Honour to be writing for Him. That's all I ever dreamt to do - remember I shared, that several years ago, I thought that one day I will write a book. The Title was already there, but nothing else. Well the title was 'In The Name of The Father' - that's the title of my blog. I don't know if this will become a book one day, or if this blog is what God intended me to write..... (at the time blogging didn't even exist) - all I know is, that I will go, where God will lead me, will do what God will lead me to do. As this is the only way I can imagine life from this day forward. 

My prayer for you today is, that you would find your gift, if you haven't found it yet. God has given you special purpose and a special gift or talent. The talent is God's gift to us, what we do with it - how we can honour Him through using our talent is our gift back to God.

I am sure, it's not hidden or hard to find - most of the time it's something that you have enjoyed doing all your life, yet you would never have thought it could be used for the Glory of God.

Heavenly Father, I lift up all the women and men that are reading my blog, that they would find you - they would find the gift you gave them to bring Glory to your name. I know, you are giving me the gift to share my Faith and my story with them, with them in mind. That they might find comfort and hope in it, that they in turn can come to you and that they would trust you with their lives. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ I pray - AMEN

Your sister in Christ - always